back to hell with love

feeling all mixed up for the new sch term. econs and data management today sounded like greek to me. tmr is OOS and AS... i think also gone f. day took a turn for the better when i met her for lunch. then chill out in library till her lesson started. things turned even better when aiwen and bao called to meet up. i missed them sooooo much. shall give them their xmas prezzies real soon. bao's flying off in 2 wks time.. but aiwen's staying for CNY. haha.. what a joke.. just when she was supposed to be my pseudo-gf.. i got attached. too bad aiwen.. your bf's coming over next week anyway... hope dear can make it. i really want to share my joy with them.

looking forward to meeting her parents with mixed emotions. like i've said, as long she's ready, im ready to do it, as long as i have her full support. somehow, i sense that she's not very enthusiastic about the meeting. i hope im being oversensitive. Otherwise, i can also empathise why so.

the support she has been rendering is invaluable. she is actually a really strong person... and in fact im learning from her.. a lot of stuff. just that she doesn't realises it. i now have new motivation to prevent myself from procrastinating.. shall finish all my business asap everyday and relax with her before i fall asleep. but a bit hard ah... i onli sleep when the sun rises. i really don't know why. i have been trying to fall asleep for the past hour.. but it just doesn't work. i don't wanna take cough syrup or sleeping pills... cuz my body is seriously screwing up. today is the first day of school and im down with gastric for the whole day. what the fish..

come on man, whoever is out there, pray for me that this term is gonna be smooth sailing and gone with the wind in no time. after which we can enjoy our quiet getaway somewhere.. for some peace.. and more love.