no mood for anything

how time flies. 5 more days to 22. Its really true that the years fly by after 20.

i hav so many things to do. But something must always happen to make me lose the mood to do work. things that happen these days just makes me feel that history is gonna repeat itself.

facing the music in 2 hours time. i'll just keep quiet and pretend nothing has happened.

its my full family birthday dinner tonight. i should be happy, but i doubt i will be. well, at least this time my birthday gets celebrated.

i want to be happy. i really want to.

its ok, i will be happy soon. i just need to get used to it.


the silence
the threat
got me worried.

never thought
never ever
there was a purpose.

reality,
on the other hand,
is ruthless.

and indeed they were,
they really were,
done on purpose.

my drive takes a beating.
my heart was treated to a piercing.
but emotions shall be kept in check.
for i do not want to break a pact.

i said what i said,
i did what i did.
my court is empty,
where is the ball?


i wish to carry on, but i have a date with migraine. OUCH.