a surprise that is not to be
star wars yesterday. closure of the trilogy, not too bad. dinner with family at pan pac, not worth the fifty bucks, but i still ate till i almost puked. went home and waited and waited for her to come. watched movie, super hot tomyam noodles n then concussed.
woke up for lunch late today. slacked around n then sent her home. met sam soon after. she complained that i don't pamper her as much now that i have a gf. but i don't think its because i have a gf, its more because i have grown older. maybe i'm cynical, but i have slowly grown increasingly selfish, for pple often misplace my care n concern.
we were having coffee and cheesecake at coffee club when mich called me at 6, telling me that she's going to eat at home alone. suddenly struck me that i can give her a surprise to make up for the dinner that we never had yesterday. so i gave sam a lame reason that i couldn't send her home n msged my mum tt i'll not be eating. sped home to get her cornflake tarts and gave her a call to ask what she wanted for dinner, only to realise that she's already on the way out for dinner. my world mini crashed. so i skipped dinner n went to zzz, despite my mum's repeated attempts to make me eat something.
i cooled down n told myself that its ok. i wasn't blaming her or anything, just disappointed, and its nobody's fault. just let it be, n be nice if she calls. she realli did. and i wanted to talk to her so much, thinking that she wanted to talk to me as much. but i was wrong. she was just interested in explaining herself for wat happened before, and for needing to keep the conversation short to run some errands. ok... hope was given and dashed again..
blog, at least i know when i have no one to turn to, there is u. u might not be a living thing, but at least my frustrations can be let off here, and i'll be normal again in the REAL world. i guess she must be happily playing mahjong or interacting with her relatives or sleeping soundly or doing nothing or watever. i'll just let her be and not disturb her cuz i know i'm volatile now. whatever i say now, she's going to say that i'm blaming her, but i'm not. poor blog, u have to bear the grunt of this. LOL. but wth, that's the purpose of you nevertheless. at least you won't say that i'm blaming u for what has happened.
time to drink it all off. cheers. tmr will be better!
woke up for lunch late today. slacked around n then sent her home. met sam soon after. she complained that i don't pamper her as much now that i have a gf. but i don't think its because i have a gf, its more because i have grown older. maybe i'm cynical, but i have slowly grown increasingly selfish, for pple often misplace my care n concern.
we were having coffee and cheesecake at coffee club when mich called me at 6, telling me that she's going to eat at home alone. suddenly struck me that i can give her a surprise to make up for the dinner that we never had yesterday. so i gave sam a lame reason that i couldn't send her home n msged my mum tt i'll not be eating. sped home to get her cornflake tarts and gave her a call to ask what she wanted for dinner, only to realise that she's already on the way out for dinner. my world mini crashed. so i skipped dinner n went to zzz, despite my mum's repeated attempts to make me eat something.
i cooled down n told myself that its ok. i wasn't blaming her or anything, just disappointed, and its nobody's fault. just let it be, n be nice if she calls. she realli did. and i wanted to talk to her so much, thinking that she wanted to talk to me as much. but i was wrong. she was just interested in explaining herself for wat happened before, and for needing to keep the conversation short to run some errands. ok... hope was given and dashed again..
blog, at least i know when i have no one to turn to, there is u. u might not be a living thing, but at least my frustrations can be let off here, and i'll be normal again in the REAL world. i guess she must be happily playing mahjong or interacting with her relatives or sleeping soundly or doing nothing or watever. i'll just let her be and not disturb her cuz i know i'm volatile now. whatever i say now, she's going to say that i'm blaming her, but i'm not. poor blog, u have to bear the grunt of this. LOL. but wth, that's the purpose of you nevertheless. at least you won't say that i'm blaming u for what has happened.
time to drink it all off. cheers. tmr will be better!
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