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Butter + White Bling Party + Sunset Grill and Bar Weekend

2008-09-09T09:58:00.007+08:00

It has been a great and tiring weekend. Friday night was drinks with the gang at cornerstone followed by butter in members. Alcohol tolerance has been really bad these days so I evacuated from butter at 12.30am to Walas for some sobering up. EIC's really quite cool by the way.

Met Stel, Alv and the Pao at Great World for dinner on Sat evening. Followed by White Bling (SIM bash) at Zouk. First time in a club with my shades, can't see no shit man.. All in all had a gd time. Stayed sober! Yay. Congrats on the gd job well done to Bernie, ZT and committee!

Sunday was massage at Wonng's Spa followed by dinner at Sunset Grill. Was blessed with good weather throughout the day so there's nothing else to ask for.

Wish all my weekends are as fruitful like this man! 3.5 more days to weekend again!! Looking forward to TGIF. :D

-Updated with pics-

PIMP wannabe. :)

da gang.

sunset grill and bar.

it's not called sunset grill for nothing.

famous spicy wings (leftovers) that someone finished up for me. hiak.

Foreign

2008-09-06T02:52:00.003+08:00

It seems so foreign to me, so long ago.

The feeling's so strong, that it's scary.

Yet I reckon, for I am wary.

I recall: "Take a leap of faith"

I followed: "Go with your heart's take"

I hear: "You think too much you piece of cake"

if the flow grows, go with the flow sire.

If the flow goes, then that's so only so much you can go sire.

So sweet, yet so painful.

Well, I chose to be a fool, a blessed fool I am hopeful.

For a leap of faith is all I can do, the consequences I can't outdo.

Good luck sire. Good luck to the fool.

Dangerous Minds

2008-08-25T02:20:00.002+08:00

It just occurred to me that I have not watched the movie yet, though I love the song. Shall make time for it.

The Truth.

2008-08-17T17:24:00.007+08:00

I woke up today and suddenly got into the mood to blog, so I opened my laptop, logged into blogger and dang, my mind went blank.

I ended up blog surfing and bumped into a survey that asked me to describe myself with 10 separate words/phrases. It then dawned on me that it'll be quite interesting to get people whom I've known since the different phases of my life to describe me. Hence I browsed through my MSN list and got 3 respondents that gamely entertained my request! Thanks!

Respondent: C
Phase: Since University
Age: Younger than me

1) owl
2) clubber
3) hardworking
4) kind
5) easy to bully
6) permanently online
7) alvin's and stella's light blub
8) very chi qing
9) nice to friends
10) contradicting thoughts

Respondent: A
Phase: Since Secondary School
Age: Same age as me

1) intuitive
2) pessimistic or maybe just think too much too often
3) ambitious
4) sensitive
5) confident
6) outgoing and enjoys good company
7) easily bored therefore craves changes/excitement
8) commitment phobic??!
9) has a calming effect on others....but sometimes to the point of being seemingly detached
10) great listener who is overly objective most times!!!!!

Respondent: S
Phase: Since Junior College
Age: Older than me

1) a young man too eager to grow old
2) his eyes are definitely the windows to his soul
3) a very carefully thought through risk taker
4) a workaholic by day, an alcoholic by night
5) a wannabe 'playa' who can never find the heart to be one simply because he's too nice
6) a man who will fight for what he wants, when he actually knows what he wants
7) excellent taste in food, bad taste in women
8) loves his friends to a T,but needs to learn to love himself more
9) rough around the edges but all heart inside
10) a wise fool who has so much love to give

I have to specially thank S for her insightful and smart words that just blew me away. I noticed lots of contradicting phrases about myself. Am I really so contradicting at times? Well, I promised not to censor, dispute, or comment on the words that I've gotten, so here they are. I kept my side of the bargain yeah?

Time for me to think through these 30 lines, and do some reflections. Alone.

Have a good week ahead, Friends.

what is my mum hinting?

2008-06-26T01:20:00.002+08:00

From: My Mum
To: Me

Subject: FW: Difference Between Wife and Girlfriend

See.... HP have virus .........

-----------Forwarded Message------------------------

Wife is like TV, girlfriend is like Handphone (HP)
At home watch TV, go out bring HP.
No money, sell TV. Got money change HP.
Sometimes enjoy TV, but most of the time play with HP.
TV free for life but HP, if you don't pay the services will be terminated
TV is big, bulky and most of the time old, but handphone is cute, slim,
curvy and very portable at any time.
Operational cost for TV is often acceptable but for HP is high and often dema nding,
Most Important, TV got remote.. HP don't have..
Last but not least........

TV do not have virus, but h/p yes...........have VIRUS.............. once get it, HABIS LA. ....hahahahaha......
so better choose TV.

Regards,
Mum

Hmm.... since when HP got virus? But after a quick check via google... There are really viruses going around in HPs!!!!!
I wonder what my mum is hinting...

1. HP got virus, so watch out and take precautions.
2. GF got virus, so watch out and lagi take precautions.
3. Never get a GF?
4. Get a wife? -- Which begs point 4: How to find a wife w/o finding gf?

Ok, this is getting circular. I've been screwing around with circular references in Excel today so I shall stop using my brain.

Good night office workers.
Good morning party goers. Have fun.

--------Interrupted--------

A friend just sent me an sms: "Zouk-"....
I guess it's a drunk sms since it's obviously supposed to be "Zouk?".

Anyhow. Ich bin müde. Gute Nacht.

What a day...

2008-06-01T18:09:00.003+08:00

It was supposed to be an uneventful Saturday evening. Watched one missed call on my laptop and then met Alv for kopi before heading down to Zouk for pregaming. After that, we took a long walk to butter factory to meet bday girl and gang, but ended up waiting like 45 mins for them outside this Jap restaurant.

Anyway, FINALLY made it to butter and boy oh boy was it crowded. The only mentionable part of the night was the "thing" that this model-like ang moh chick did to me. Only the people who were there with me know about the "thing".. so what happens at the club stays at the club... Anyway, the music wasn't very appealing so we left for supper at about 1 plus.. hahahah.. yes.. 1 plus.. the time I usually start partying.. Had ripped off bak ku teh at MS right after..

Ok now for the next highlight of the night.. I got home at about 3am, entered my elevator.. and it started moving up.. for about 1-2 seconds and then it jerked with a loud thud. The button lights and floor indicator switched off and there I was.. stuck in the lift after watching one missed call a few hours before... !#$!$%#$@^#%$^$%&%^$&#$^$#@%@!%@#$

Immediately called Alv and Stel, followed by the breakdown hotline. "Hi sir, please remain calm and do not force the doors open. I will contact the service engineer right away", the voice on the other line regurgitated. At this moment, I realized that the lift was MOVING... but it was like 1 cm/s lor.. So I was half praying for it to reach the 6th floor (which is the next lobby) and hopefully it will open; I was also half praying that it will NOT reach the 6th floor, lest I see some scary shit...

Thankfully, nothing scary appeared on the 6th floor.. and the lift doors did open... As the doors closed behind me.. I saw the lift go up at NORMAL speed to the 11th floor.. It's damn freaky lah.. like it happened ONLY TO ME..

And so I went home, forgetting to lock my door, climbed into bed and refused to get off it. That's why I say God is fair.. He gives you some "thing" and He takes something else away. Sigh.

Wild Rocket

2008-05-31T18:10:00.003+08:00

Some pictures from Wild Rocket@Hangout some time ago. Food's not too bad. Worth a try.

Goodbye SMU

2008-05-29T03:58:00.003+08:00

As I recall that talk where Alvin and I were interviewed way back in Year 1, back in the old campus, I reminisce about being the blur freshman going into SMU-SIS and graduation seemed so far away then.

Now, we're both starting work in the next month, each armed with a SMU degree that we believe is sought after by employers (though I just found out from a friend today that the contrary is also true).

"So is SMU that great after all?", I've been asked countless times for the past 4 years.

I shall keep the answer in my heart from now on, for I see no need to prove anything.

Thank you SMU, for the experiences, for the friends, for the opportunities and everything else. Auf Wiedersehen mit Liebe.

a sign?

2008-05-10T03:32:00.002+08:00

It seems things are finally falling into place,
the pieces are no longer in a maze.

"Have faith", she said.
It's so much easier to talk than walk.

Accent on the future.
An irony or a sign?

"Have faith", she said.
It's time to walk the talk.

I also say.

追

2008-04-25T00:34:00.001+08:00

a endless chase that many continue to pursue.

mei you le

2008-04-10T06:28:00.001+08:00

thank god my name is not Ken Lee

2008-03-14T00:48:00.000+08:00

birthday wishes

2008-03-07T02:48:00.000+08:00

all i ask for is health and happiness for my family and friends. And peace for me.

Imprisoned Juno-ic Memories

2008-02-29T17:01:00.000+08:00

I just watched it again, for the 5th time.

Fell in love with the show. Fell in love with the soundtrack. Must watch. Must listen.

I so very much hope that I can be real again.

It's taking too long. Too long. Happiness evades me, or am I evading happiness?

Faith

2008-02-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

Unquestioned belief in something; complete trust, confidence, or loyalty

Faith is believing in something, even when common sense tells you not to.

You know it is time to put your logical mind aside and trust your instincts. Trust your gut feeling. Faith lives in your heart, not in your mind.

Believe in yourself and know there is more to life than what meets the eye.

Take a quantum leap in faith. Stretch your imagination. Go for it! The odds are in your favor and you are supported on many levels.

Concentrate on really knowing from within. Don't let doubt bring you down. When faith is strong, there is no room for doubt.

Let go of the control you mistakenly think you have over the Universe.

When a leap of faith is needed, ask yourself, "What is the worst thing that could happen?" Often the answer is a lot less intimidating than you may think.

Often, it is time to let go of old belief systems, old patterns, old habits and take a blind leap into the void. Trust that the right outcome will occur.

Be careful of what you wish for..

2008-02-22T10:58:00.001+08:00

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In retrospect

2008-01-15T18:25:00.000+08:00

It's true. You'll never know what you've lost until u lose it.

It's true. You'll never find the same again.

It's true. A soul mate is hard to come by, or does it even come by?

Rainy night in Mannheim

2008-01-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

Sleepless again, I reflect.
The fragility of life, I neglect.
The value of words, I suspect.
The worthiness of actions, I inspect.

Pay it forward, I cried.
Pay it forward, I tried.
Pay it forward, I denied.

I read
"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day.
Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime."

Am I the fisherman?
Or am I the fish?

Cynical, I don't want to be.
Cynical, yes I am.

A choice, yes I have.
But the flesh is willing, mind's weak.

Apprehensive, I am
the next time we speak.
But maybe, just maybe,
Everything's gonna tick.

The secret, I just watched.
The law of attraction, it taught.
The power of the mind, I am shocked.
My own bloody mind, I must contort.

Pay it forward, I cry.
Pay it forward, I try
Pay it forward, I will try.

what a joke

2007-12-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

I'll be glad to have one. But first, I need a girlfriend, especially one who doesn't have the boyfriend version of the remote.

spark of the day

2007-11-14T05:12:00.000+08:00

watching something like this brought the only smile to my face today. how sad.

Fight or Flight?

2007-11-02T07:27:00.000+08:00

When confronted by our worst nightmares, the choices are just a few. Fight or flight. We hope to find the strength to stand against our fears. But sometimes, despite ourselves, we run. What if the nightmare gives chase? Where can we hide then?

something to ponder about

2007-09-26T08:48:00.000+08:00

"Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about smtg you said. After marriage, he'll fall asleep b4 you finish." - friend's MSN nick

Really? I don't know. Haven't been married. But I guess it might be true to a certain extent.

I'm too lazy to post travel photos here. See them on my facebook.

Don't have facebook? Sign up then, loser! :)

Greetings from Germany

2007-09-16T18:24:00.000+08:00

I'm finally here in Germany. Will update in due time but first... check out the "High Energy" ride I conquered yesterday..

insomnia

2007-07-19T04:12:00.000+08:00

it has been a while. 2 days more and I'll be done with internship. A fruitful one I must say. Got the kind of work I was looking for, made a bunch of fun but violent people and being treated like part of the family.

It's another loooonggg night trying to fall asleep. Fear of weird dreams and inability to wake overwhelms me. Doesn't help that I have to make a life-changing decision by this friday. argh. I need drinks.

passion

2007-06-05T15:42:00.000+08:00

feeling stupid

2007-05-15T19:59:00.000+08:00

i don't know what's going on in training. I really hope i won't need to do such stuff when work starts proper. *crosses fingers*

to those who are overseas.. I won't be available to talk to u guys online anymore at least in the next few wks! my msn will be kept on so leave messages k? miss you all loads!

hell weeks ahead. :(

horoscopic characteristics of my car

2007-04-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

random photos

2007-04-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

my guardian angels

some random sports car that dawn snapped from my car

bubbles and i on pig out sunday

jap buffet!

3 idiots

how gay right?

queensway vivo day

2007-04-07T17:57:00.000+08:00

super soursop drink. And they don't have seeds. yay.

famous duck rice stall

doesn't look that gd, but tastes good! And they have sichuan veg soup!

loner

2007-04-05T17:32:00.000+08:00

lightning

2007-04-04T04:31:00.000+08:00

as it flashes again and again,
i can't help but stare in awe.

i love lightning.

smile, cry, feel.

2007-04-04T02:01:00.000+08:00

fate unveiled an alter ego that echoes empathy
fate unveiled an instinct that echoes truth
fate unveiled a washout that refuses to get off the runaway train

can you help me remember how to smile?
can you help me remember how to cry?
can you help me remember how to feel?

why do i see a smile in the reflection?
why do the falling raindrops taste salty?
why is my heart aching?

am i smiling, crying and feeling at the same time, or am i not?

I wonder.

Oktoberfest

2007-03-31T16:42:00.000+08:00

It's been confirmed. Will be doing exchange at Mannheim, Germany.

Maybe it hasn't sunk in yet, but I am not as overjoyed as some of my peers who have gotten their exchange.

In any case, it'll sink in when it sinks in.

Oktoberfest here I come. Better hit the gym to allow space for beer belly come october.

the test

2007-03-27T05:28:00.000+08:00

as the words form,
they're destroyed.

as the concern shows,
they're hidden.

as the memories creep up,
they're covered.

feel them through your heart,
not through your ears.

feel them through my actions,
before this test came along.

empathize, not mistake my efforts,
in enduring the journey.

close your eyes,
you can feel it.

not through my body,
but through my soul.

pig out sunday

2007-03-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

lunch at crystal jade
desert at essential brew

salsa (not much fat burnt though)

dinner at sushi tei
movie at cine
wine and sang my lungs out at labrador

slept the monday away

that's how my weekend flew past. calorie loading to survive max 10 hours of sleep for this whole wk starting tonight. *cough*

never ending beers on a sat afternoon

2007-03-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

met up with fellow unscholarly scholar last night. she was so bimbotic that she mistook a leaf for a spaceship.. hahahahha... i can't help but laugh my ass out.. it was nice.. a starry cloudless night.. with lotsa couples to look at.. ;)

screwed my MIS exam today :(. decided to patronize the new ice cold beer in school and ended up drinking lotsa hoegaardens.. what a way to laze my saturday away.

i hope that tmr will be a fruitful sunday. I sure look forward to tmr.

Time for work! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

death

2007-03-23T04:54:00.000+08:00

death seems to have found its way around me again.

therefore.. you, YES, YOU! Go do that thing you've been wanting to do for so long, but haven't found time for it. Go pick up the phone and call your loved ones and tell them how much u love them!

i'm not being pessimistic here, but seriously, you never know when you'll live to, and you'll never know how long people around you will stay around. So treasure them while you can!

So here goes.. dearest friends whom have made a difference to my life.... I LOVE YOU ALL!! I hope I've made a positive impact on your lives too!

passing it on

2007-03-22T04:33:00.000+08:00

its strange how emotions get passed on from one to another. the gang seems to be self destructing one by one, but then again, it could just be a cycle.. let's just hope that it is.

I had bad night at work, partly due to the fact I wasn't feeling well, and what happened right before i went to work.

well, the consolation of being painfully misunderstood by a close friend, is the understanding, respect and honesty of another one. now i finally know how it feels to be stuck in between. my sincere apologies to those whom i've inevitably caused to feel the same way.

i keep hearing the words "needs vs wants" around me. So which is the higher level? Is want a higher level need? Or is need a higher level want? Or are they mutually exclusive?

1. Do you want somebody because you need that somebody so much?

2. Do you need somebody because you want that somebody so much?

I'm sure one of the answers to the 2 questions is a yes, which begs the question: "Are needs and wants different after all?"

new tie. any luck?

2007-03-21T16:43:00.000+08:00

wore my new tie for presentation today. i guess it helped, at least in the confidence boosting department. heh. didn't manage to snap a picture of my CB group though :(

turned up for work last night to find that the enrollment service went offline. After several phone calls, HQ told me that I could go home and rest!? Argh.. wasted my time going home and traveling all the way down to zouk. damn.

headed for school to finish up the presentation for today. eunice seemed freaked out at the way i drove when i sent her home.. sorry lah.. stress lah.. the way i drive is reflective of my moods..

Supposed to have gotten down to my script when i reached home, but ended up making a few calls to solve the problem at work. coincidentally, when i was done with it and finally starting work, an old friend came online and we had a rather long and enlightening chat on the phone. It was nice catching up on old times, the times when we were naive and idealistic, trying to turn dreams into reality.

These conversations certainly keep me sane during this period of emotional and physical turmoil. The steep climb up the crest of the rainbow is exhausting, but I know that this is the best way out for everyone. It's not something I asked for, but something that I have to follow through out of respect.

ok. dc is holding a model of male genitals right beside me, so I have no more mood to blog anymore.

anyway, here's a pic of the model:

R21, if not M18

2007-03-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

watch at your own discretion. welcome to the real world. :)

inhumaness

2007-03-20T03:10:00.000+08:00

inhuman i am not
neither are you

communication is the key to understanding
lack of it only confirms it

all that needs to be said have been said
we just have to remind ourselves of it

time to hit the sheets, for a new day ahead. woo hooo!
goood mooorrrnnninnnggg singapore!!

I trust

2007-03-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

Indifference and coldness it is not
But with the delicate situation at present,
I appreciate that you understand my plight
And exercise the same restraint that I do

Words of concern and support have truly touched but alas I only wish for one reply.
The finale.
Patience and tenacity will pull me through.
Respect and decisiveness i ask for.

Although there has been a recent appearance
I trust that you'll know how to handle the situation

sunday blues

2007-03-18T12:47:00.000+08:00

woke up real groggy and late for start of F1 :(

dinner today is cancelled :(

whole tank of fish died :(

mum is grumpy :(

hopefully salsa later can redeem things. make-up dinner looks promising too :)

thanks ollie, yang and sam for the constant nagging. its actually working. wth.

yummy

2007-03-17T02:47:00.000+08:00

blood. ouch.

lazy thurs

2007-03-16T17:17:00.000+08:00

sam bought me this slurpee-like drink at phuture on wed night... super sweet.. but yet still quite alcoholic.. it was ok once it was diluted when the ice melted. then i made a wrong decision to try dirty martini.. waste of my money...

supposed to study with my fellow unscholarly scholar on thurs but she woke me up at almost 11am when it was supposed to be 10am.. in the end she had to go for lunch appointment and i decided to sleep in after the previous night's heavy supper thanks to sam and may.

the fever came back and i just slept the day away after finding no medication to take at home.. it kinda subsided lah, so i went to work in the end. but it seems now that my body's heating up again. just downed 1 litre of water a while ago. now my bladder's bursting.

ollie's flying off tonight. sigh~ but she promised to keep in contact while she's lovey dovey-ing with u-know-who in melbourne. ;)

2 more nights and it'll be my "weekend". yay! oh for those whom i haven't told yet, i'm working for citibank at zouk from tuesdays to saturdays. so technically, sundays and mondays are my weekends. time to fill my "weekends" up so that i won't pathetically spend them stoning at home.

And yes, i will take care of myself, for the sake of the treasure at the end of the rainbow.

fatigued, depressed, sick.

2007-03-14T18:39:00.000+08:00

i found out something today that confirmed my gut feeling, but yet i can't tell anyone about it. why didn't anyone believe me at first? i don't cry wolf do i? sigh~

3-4 hrs of sleep every night is taking its toll on me. i actually overshot the school bus stop and alighted at lavender today. had to take a train back to city hall and walk the long walk to sch.

got caught in the storm on the way back from EY interview. i think i'm running a fever (quite high for that matter.. i just measured that is 38.5C, peng... and i still have to work in 2 hours time. i'm going to bed. if anyone of u happen to be a hero, please do me a favor and stop time for me when i'm asleep.

i look forward to studying tmr. new khaki. new motivation.

Photos!

2007-03-09T10:54:00.000+08:00

Partido Viente Cuadro

如果有一天

2007-03-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

以下是烧猪显给我的第一首歌，谢谢！＊感动＊

《如果有一天》

词曲:刘德华

如果有一天
汽车与飞机转眼再不足够
别害怕
你拥有的天赋的一对双脚伴你可漫游
如果有一天
你屋里家俬一旦再不拥有
别害怕
那温暖的家里的成员欢笑伴你于床头
心乐透

人的快乐在乎学晓等候
命里不归于你
你便毅然地放开手
越抱着只会越嬲 (注: 嬲 = 生气)
知足一世你便富有

人善天不欺简单一个道理
怎么(竟)不看透
任君多美丽富裕
在最后平头
每种因果是有天修
人善天不欺你懂得以后
掌握心中节奏
只要食得落睡得好
天天里笑得开口
便(就)已足够

如果有一天
战争与饥荒充斥全个地球
别害怕
你心我心手与手连成一线为你可分忧
好朋友

Day 1

2007-02-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

Slept my night away after salsa. Now I'm wide awake. Sigh. I wish the break never ended. Period.

Insecurity

2007-02-21T02:21:00.000+08:00

is scary.

Protege

2007-02-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

It was a nice show. Something close to heart. Something portrayed well. Acting was good. Painfully good. Disturbingly good. The only thing about the show that I don't like, is that it failed to show any struggle within Ah Li whether to betray his boss. Maybe his character was written as one who's very clear about his identity, but yet, I felt that his actions in the show showed him as a person who truely understood and felt for his boss..

The film ends with a final question: Are drugs scarier, or is emptiness scarier?

My only answer: drugs are physically scarier, emptiness is emotionally scarier.

Ah the end of the show, the little girl was shown taking the needle away from Ah Li. But the question remains.. was it removed after the heroin has been injected, or not?

I choose to believe that the girl managed to fill Ah Li's emptiness..

相爱很难

2007-02-12T02:33:00.000+08:00

在个老友的blog上
看到以下的歌词
虽然唱不出粤语版
但对歌词还是有不少的感触
所以我也跟大家分享
希望大家会喜欢。。

相爱很难 - 张学友.梅艳芳

作曲:陈辉阳
填词:林夕

最好
有生一日都爱下去
但谁人
能将恋爱当做终生兴趣

生活
其实旨在找到个伴侣
面对现实
热恋很快变长流细水

可惜我不智或侥幸
对火花天生敏感
不过两只手拉得太紧
爱到过了界那对爱人
同时亦最易变成一对敌人

也许相爱很难
就难在其实双方各有各寄望
怎么办
要单恋都难
受太大的礼会
内疚却也无力归还
也许不爱不难
但如未成佛升仙也会怕
爱情前途黯淡
爱不爱都难
未快乐先有责任
给予对方面露欢颜

得到浪漫
又要有空间
得到定局
却怕去到终站
然后付出多得到少
不介意豁达
又担心
有人看不过眼

无论热恋中失恋中
都永远记住第一戒
别要张开双眼

retro indeed

2007-02-12T01:04:00.000+08:00

i never knew "call me" was THIS RETRO.. enjoy..

Call Me - Spagna

deja vu

2007-02-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

my heart wrenched as i read those words.

its such a coincidence isn't it?

for a while after, i just feel like giving up this whole fight.

am i really dumb to be doing this?

Can time heal?

2007-02-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

"The answer does not lie in time or in another idea that has been born in time. It is in our own mind."

Read more here.

back to hell

2007-02-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

It's crunch time again, but i just can't get my mind back to work. I can't even remember the deadlines i have for coming 2 weeks. Sigh~

Insomnia's coming back. Cravings are at an all time high. Getting used to being a loner again.

It just struck me that graduation is due end of year and I'll have to (hopefully) land a job in 08.

I hope I can find new motivation to strive towards 08.

Latin fest, traffic light party, Kevin's farewell and May's birthday are all happening tonight. *going mad*

Gonna camp at home for the whole weekend to do work, though I don't think I'll get much work done.

Come on ray, be a man, do the right thing.

thank god its saturday

2007-01-20T09:50:00.000+08:00

the weekend is finally here, but i know its going to flash past much faster than every single weekday.

its a refreshing saturday morning, though a little gloomy. i like.

women vs men again.

2007-01-16T09:23:00.000+08:00

Got this from Errol's blog:

A woman was out golfing one day when she hit the ball into the woods.
She went into the woods to look for it and found a frog in a trap. The
frog said to her, "If you release me from this trap, I will grant you
three wishes."

The woman freed the frog, and the frog said, "Thank you, but I failed
to mention that there was a condition to your wishes. Whatever you
wish for, your husband will get Ten times of that The woman said, "That's
okay."

For her first wish, she wanted to be the most beautiful woman in the
world.

The frog warned her, "You do realize that this wish will also make
your husband the most handsome man in the world, an Adonis whom women
will flock to".

The woman replied, "That's okay, because I will be the most beautiful
Woman and he will have eyes only for me." So, KAZAM-she's the most
beautiful Woman in the world!

For her second wish, she wanted to be the richest woman in the world.
The frog said, That will make your husband the richest man in the
world and he will be ten times richer than you.

The woman said, "That's okay, because what's mine is his and what's his
is mine."

So, KAZAM-she's the richest woman in the world!

The frog then inquired about her third wish, and she answered, "I'd
like a mild heart attack!!"

Moral of the story: Women are clever. Don't mess with them.

Attention female readers: This is the end of the joke for you, Stop
here and continue feeling good.....

Male readers: Please scroll down

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The man had a heart attack ten times milder than his wife!!!

Moral of the story: Women are really dumb but think they're really
smart.

Let them continue to think that way and just enjoy the show.

PS: If you are a woman and are still reading this, it only goes to
show that women never listen!!! that is why you read it even after our
advise to stop!

lethargic weather, lethargic week

2007-01-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

One week just flew past like that. Met Sam last Sunday to catch "The Holiday". Nice.. There was something about every character that I could identify with. At the very least, it was a show that gave hope...

Spent 3 week nights at Frujch. Tuesday for Candace's and Faye's performances, Thursday for Ben's and Andrea's performances followed by Loco on Friday. Been driving so much over the week that I've become so drained of energy, but I still like driving nevertheless. :)

An old girl friend cum shopping khaki called this morning and the first thing she said when I picked up the phone was "AH BENG! ni hao ma?!". I was like... ?!.. What's with the "Ah Beng" thing? Sigh~ I miss those carefree days of acting atas and modeling clothes for each other. People used to mistake us for a couple but we knew each other so well that we were sure we'll never fall for one another. We were both victims of unrequited love then.

Last night was pleasant despite the tiring labor and drive in the rain. Was dozing off a few times until i decided to drive thru at Macs for food. Didn't sleep well though. Kept waking up almost every hour and I had to climb out of bed at 9.30 to fly down to J8 for a meeting. Now that I'm back, I have to fetch my mum to the temple... ahhhh...

I should really start charging for my fatimah and ahmad services.

bad boys vs gd boys

2007-01-07T06:49:00.000+08:00

Received a call today.

To my surprise, it was from the ever busy "aeroplane flyer" PRISSY who called me to meet up!! The sun must have risen from the West today. ;)

I was late due to the long parking queue at Plaza Sing, but she was nice enough to have gotten a cosy seat at TCC. It was nice catching up again although it was just a short 1 hour plus chat. Never saw a side of her until today. I was mildly surprised. Both of us just poured out whatever we had in us, and time flew past just like that. A fellow horoscope-believer, she was sharing the horoscopes that she knew about when we stumbled upon the fact that qy is a cancer. I was just casually joking about having her matchmake us when she said that qy and her will never fall for good boys but bad boys instead.. I was like... this is the first time anyone has classified me a GOOD BOY!!! Gosh, how honored.

Today is my 3rd fag-free day, but I had to walk through a crowded smoking point just now. The 2nd hand smoke got me real bad. Luckily I got distracted and the urge got out of my head. :) Therefore this morning is the start of Day 4 and not Day 1 again.

Caught a midnight show at PS. Borat. Sucks man. Or maybe I wasn't in the mood for humor.

I was extremely impatient with traffic today. Bad omen. There was this MPV I was following as I drove out of the PS carpark from Deck 6A. He was going soooo sloowww that I took a whole 5 minutes.. yes 5 MINUTES... to get to the ground floor and out of the carpark. One would have mistaken me to be quarreling on the handsfree if they've seen what I was doing while tailgating him. I'm sorry, I counted to 20 (usually I only count to 10) but it didn't help.

I shall catch The Holiday today after a friend highly recommended it Can't wait. Filled with anticipation. I hope it will not end up too sad.

2007

2007-01-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

Since NYE, it has been an emotional roller coaster ride. From the first drop on NYE, to non-stop airtime across bunny hops on new year's day. Went corkscrew on the 2nd and finally the brake run yesterday.

Now its back to school. And back to numbing myself. I feel like a naked hermit crab.

Damn i fell asleep. Now its 10.57pm. Now for some random thoughts and observations.

I chopped off a lot of hair on New Year's Day while I took a nap in the comfy chair at the hairdresser's. I like this cut.

May doesn't like my "non-Korean" hair anymore.

Glad to have gotten to know this new bunch of officers studying in OZ land over this festive season. It was nice reminiscing about army again. Twice on NYE, I made a new year resolution to stay sober for 07 as I popped the champagnes. (Notice the irony?) But on a serious note, last night was my first sober night at zouk. *pat on my back*

My room is STILL in a mess.

Ankle doesn't hurt anymore, though I'm still bed-ridden

I'm still contemplating about Salsa Intermediate.

Cher said I lost weight today, but I disagree.

I don't feel good about this term.

I'm hungry all the time.

Driver of SBR26**E: you obviously can't drive for nuts. Period.

I have to stay rational!! (As much as possible lah)

PERSEVERE!

What an unexpected new year's eve.

2006-12-31T21:02:00.000+08:00

I did 2 most unexpected things today. So unexpected that they amaze me. I'm dead beat, but I will be dragging my feet and sorry arse out, as gratitude to friends who have been there. If you are reading this before midnight, GET THE FREAK OUT OF YOUR HOuSE AND USHER IN THE YEAR WITH SPECIAL ONES AROUND YOU! Unless they're at your place, or you want a quiet new year with your family.

In any case, Happy 2007!

"Tears Fall Down"

2006-12-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

Now I see the time we had before
is just a passing moment that we can't share anymore.
And I've learned that written words are not the same
as when you take the time to say it
and let the clouds release the rain.
And I wish my dreams alone would bring back my old friends.
Yesterday's just something I can't mend.
And I broke down for my lost brother and I've died for mama, too.
Now my tears fall down for you. For you.
And I say one thing each day before I lay me down.
I thank god for your sweet smile although you're not around.
And I can't overcome your memory in my mind.
It's a bridge I'll never cross until the end of time.
And I wish my dreams alone would bring back my old friend.
But, yesterday's just something I can't mend.
'Cause I've broke down for my lost father and I've cried for sister, too.
Now my tears fall down for you. For you. You.

broken

2006-12-28T06:19:00.000+08:00

i've finally been broken. voluntarily. i've no more right, by choice. i know i will regret this, but that's the best i can do now.

sleepless nights

2006-12-23T07:39:00.000+08:00

recent nights have been spent thinking about a lot of stuff. past, present and future.. balancing rationality and emotions have never been my forte, yet i'm always placed in a position to do that. even as i type, the tears are slowly forming. it took me a really long time make a decision, a really difficult and painful one. i keep asking myself, why does it have to end up like this? on one hand, i have to be honest to myself. on the other, i have to fulfill a responsibility.. this is really killing me. argh.

i'm choosing this way out, because its the least painful decision in the long run. i know i'm taking a big risk, a risk of losing something forever. But at least, its a risk that I, instead of anyone else, have to take. since the problem started with me, then i should be the one taking the initiative at this, and risk losing this gem.

bittersweet memories are overwhelming me. guilt is killing me. knowing someone is hurting worse because of me is breaking me. i wish i can be stronger.

Season's Greetings

2006-12-16T16:50:00.000+08:00

Another year has gone by again. I've been trying hard to recall what has happened over the year, but it seems that I can only remember bits and pieces here and there. Its the holiday season again, so its time to convey my thanks to different people in my life.

Dad and Mum: I know I've not been the nicest son this year. And I know deep inside me, your words and tempers that I've found irritating stem from the care and concern that you 2 have for me. Thank you for always giving me the freedom to make decisions for myself. Though not all decisions were right, they have become very important learning lessons. And without these lessons, I don't think I would have become a better person. I've no excuses for my coldness at home, but I also seek your understanding that it has really been a tough year for me. There were a lot of issues, events, work, SIFE that I had to deal with. And it was frustrating when I couldn't even have peace at home, on top of having to keep them within myself all the time. It was just very hard for me to communicate to you all when the first thing I faced was raised voices and accusations. Whatever it is, I wish things will get better in 07, and that you 2 enjoy gd health and luck for the following year. Love you all.

Bro: Its heartening to see you growing up and getting more sensible. Its going to be the time of your life where you have to make more important decisions for yourself, and be responsible of the decisions that you make. Focus at whatever you want to do, and do it good. All the best in 07.

Aiwen: Thank you for standing by all these years (I can't believe it's already 8 years... we're getting bloody old) to listen to my crap, while we accompanied each other in the growing up process. Thank you for standing by during the dreadful event and for not judging me. I guess both of us have had a messed up 06, so lets hope 07 will be better. We'll be bloody 24... gosh.

Dechao, Wilson, Chris, Desmond, Tiff, Fabian, Vince, Kevin, Hazel: Thank god there's always you guys around when we go drinking, club, chill, do nothing, slack, *puff* and act like kids. Thanks for the great company, long nights and fun!

Sam Tee: Sometimes you are like a older sister, sometimes u are like a little sister. Since we got to know each other 6 years ago in that pathetic room answering phone calls, I honestly didn't expect the friendship to last till today. But here we are, despite you being away in Doha for the past 3 years, u're coming home soon! And you'll be actually around in 07.. heh. Thank you for the long msn chats and hearing me grumble and complain all the time! I wish you luck in finding a job you love, and a fruitful 07.

Huikie, Shannon, Joel, Cher, Michelle, Tan Wee, Alvin, Stella: Thanks for the memories of SIFE Nationals 2006 and SIFE World Cup 2006. The endless nights, frustrating disagreements, irritating saga, sweet taste of success, nerves, fun, alcohol, 5-10, etc etc etc (too long to list) have been one of the biggest highlights of my 2006. Without each and everyone's efforts, we wouldn't have made it to Paris. Kudos to u peepz.

Jace, Janice, Joel, Alvin, Shawn, Ping: You people have been on of the strongest bunch that I've ever worked with. Thanks for accomodating all my @#$%#$%^$%#^ during meetings and I won't forget all the joy, laughter and friendships forged. It has really been a pleasant experience and I wish u guys the best in 07.

Castor, Joshua, Shirley, Dechao, Wilson: Thanks for backing me up in our projects over the last term. I am grateful for everyone's understanding of my instability at work. Without the support and constant nagging (from Shirley and Dechao!), I wouldn't have pulled through and ended up with one of my best performing terms in SMU. Love you all deep deep. ;)

how will i die?

2006-12-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

revival of the unscholarly scholar

2006-12-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

wow, i actually managed to recover my 03 to 05 posts. For those who didn't know, i accidentally deleted all my posts when i shifted to my own host. That fateful click on the X happened after one of those drunk nights when i wanted to erase the past (which i did literally). It seems that the archive in blogger still exists...

i was just reading the past posts and i couldn't help but cover my face and laugh in embarrassment. just feels damn weird reading the stuff i've typed in the past, be it content, grammar mistakes, spelling mistakes whatsoever.. :x

is this going to be a revival of my blog? i don't know. i was just talking to andrea n ben today about starting a new blog with an anonymous persona. (which i did for a while for a group blog) let's see how it goes. maybe i'll come up with promiscuousboy.blogspot.com? LOL

i have moved

2005-08-26T17:16:00.000+08:00

after 2 years in blogspot. i have decided to move to my own host. bye blogspot.
http://rayall.net

my online photo gallery

2005-08-26T04:31:00.000+08:00

http://www.rayall.net/gallery/

the madness begins

2005-08-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

the new term is here. 5 modules, SIFE, WTO, SIS bash, tuition. madness.

5 meetings in first 2 days of new term. lol.

madness begins. but i like. i just don't want to burn out. pray.

mich dropped by a while to watch lost. touched.

clock shows 7pm time for meeting. bye.

mum's birthday

2005-08-19T15:50:00.000+08:00

ndp

2005-08-12T02:42:00.000+08:00

Reach 2005

2005-08-10T16:37:00.000+08:00

xm memories

2005-08-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

reception

cocksters

more cocks

4 interns and an extra. :)

long live tech!

counterstrike gang

sabrina and me

chopped and willy wonkered

2005-08-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

i chopped my 8 month long hair today. and i realised willy wonker looked too freaky for my liking.

ans

2005-08-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

a bird can fly but a fly cannot bird.

go ahead... say i'm lame say i'm lame say i'm lame (to the tune of "say my name")
when i asked xiao ming(renowned lamer) this lame question over msn the other day.. this was what happened..

me: what's the difference between a bird and a fly?
xiaoming: a bird can fly but a fly cant bird
xiaoming: whaha ok lame..no la dunno
me: wth?!?!
me: how come u know?!?!
me: u really lame queen leh
me: i still thought i can call u to stay tuned to my blog.. cuz i was going to reveal it at my next post..
xiaoming: r u sure??
me: yah
xiaoming: dats e correct ans?
xiaoming: i really haf no clue abt dat lo
me: lameness is really in your blood

cold joke

2005-08-06T03:11:00.000+08:00

what's the difference between a bird and a fly?

stay tuned....

quick update

2005-08-03T16:16:00.000+08:00

just realised my blog hits have surpassed 10000. wow.. How time flies.. I've been blogging for 2 years already.. since 2003..

apologies for the lack of updates, i've been up to my neck these days.

last fri/sat was spent at sentosa resort and spa with XM for their away day.. not too bad.. freeflow drinks at KM8 and a damn big bathtub to nua in.. god i miss those CS sessions.. still awaiting the photos I've taken at AWAY Day!!!!!

sunday was spent doing recruiment for SMU SIFE at Vivace. was caught behind the SMUVE procession on my way to school and ended up arriving late.. damn... the steamboat at mich's hse after that made up for all the hard work for the day... poor girl.. she's sick like me.

monday blues in school.. back to work..

today sick. stuck at home, gonna meet my freshies for the SIS Orientation later for dinner though. Luckily I have the car today.

tmr SIFE Club meeting for seniors. Sigh.. Attendance taking and I hafta go bras brasah to zap those info update forms.

friday SISS meeting for the orientation on sat.

sat orientation whole day at sentosa.

sun finally can spend some recreational time to watch charlie and choc factory.

Looking forward to NDP.. and Bewitched.

that's all for now, back to my HR work for SIFE and Java work for SL285. Peace out.

cool pic along orchard

2005-07-24T13:51:00.000+08:00

osama

2005-07-22T17:44:00.000+08:00

agnosticism = cheem word

2005-07-22T17:13:00.000+08:00

You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).

Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

agnosticism

75%

Buddhism

71%

Satanism

71%

Islam

63%

Paganism

63%

Hinduism

58%

Christianity

54%

atheism

50%

Judaism

38%

Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
created with QuizFarm.com

audio indulgence

2005-07-18T02:31:00.000+08:00

latest toy in the house

kleenex vs durex

2005-07-14T17:31:00.000+08:00

tiff's msn nick: Men should be like Kleenex, soft, strong and disposable

my take: Women should be like durex... safe, flexible, easily accessible and not forgetting, disposable as well.

HIAKZ.

1900-112-6888 = 1900-TTDURAI?

2005-07-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

as I watch the repeat telecast of last sunday's nkf cancer fund charity show put together painstakingly by TCS artists, i couldn't resist but come online to put forth some of my feelings about the Durai scandal.

to set the stage right, my comments are not in any way biased by the overwhelming response of the people around me.

i'll spare the details of the case, since everyone should know what's going on now. if you don't, then u most probably also don't give a damn where your donation goes, or do u donate at all?

for the benefit of the doubt, update yourself here.

i have no problem with Durai's massive pay, or the fact that NKF overstated certain figures in order to draw more donations. although these issues question the business ethics of NKF, they are after all decisions and responsibilities of the whole NKF management, not Durai's alone.

However, what bothers me, is the way Durai exploits NKF's employee benefits for his own luxuries. note LUXURIES.

NKF is a social welfare organisation. Leaders/management of this organisation should walk the talk. if you're "appealing to people who earn 1k per month to generously donate 50 dollars monthly"*, y would you be installing a tap which costs as much as 1 month of his pay?! in addition, y fly first class when business class is sufficient to represent your social status?

it scares me when i think that so many patients are counting on nkf's funds to live out the rest of their lives, and yet, NKF's head is one who lives lavishly and runs NKF like a business, but not a welfare organisation. what kind of message is being sent out to the public, and most importantly NKF's internal staff? if i'm a NKF employee, i certainly won't know how to face the public again.

the only right thing that he did in this case, is the withdrawal of the defamation suit against SPH. the question lies within his real reason for admiting his lavish spendings. did he really regret what he has done, or was he acting under the orders of the NKF management? well, that's for him to know, and for us to find out.

conclusion? one thing's for sure, I'm going to cancel my monthly pledge to NKF tomorrow. Until the day NKF gives a satisfactory response to this incident, I shall not repledge my donations. I'm doing this, not because I don't wanna do my part for the patients, but because I wonder if my pledge really reaches the patients. I certainly hope someone will file a suit against Durai and get him to compensate not the company, but the patients.

* quote Senior Counsel Davinder Singh

weekend shopping

2005-07-11T09:34:00.000+08:00

widescreen dvi LCD

Rip Curl Slippers

paean n paeony n jodie

2005-07-08T14:06:00.000+08:00

trivia

2005-07-07T09:30:00.000+08:00

Here's something to start the day.

1) which is the wealthest shampoo?
2) monks combing their hair, guess a country?

Highlight over for answer:
1) Lux, Super Rich
2) Scotland, [try pronouncing it in chinese]

Pervasive IT equals law re-engineering?

2005-07-06T10:10:00.000+08:00

http://wifi.weblogsinc.com/entry/1234000810049395

chanced upon the above post and i was unpleasantly amused by it. i can understand if the user is charged pending the WLAN's owner disapproval for others to use it. However, in this case, the "WLAN owner even said he left it open on purpose". it seems, the pervasive nature of IT is leading a law revolution of its own.

a necessity

2005-07-05T03:37:00.000+08:00

i need this desperately:
http://www.breatheright.com/products/nasal_strips.asp

disoriented monday

2005-07-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

everything passed so quickly today. some dispearsed reflections before i zzz.

ethics
we were having tea break today when we talked about ndp. i managed to ballot 2 tickets to the actual day celebrations and we digressed into saying how these tickets can fetch a high price on the black market. it suddenly hit me that I actually strongly felt it was unethical to do that. i was kind of taken aback by my own reaction. to put this into context, I was once a young man who didn't bothered about going to ndps nor thought about the importance of loyalty to the nation. i guess NS certainly served its purpose on me. what can i say? well, one thing for sure, i do sincerely believe that without the "guo2" (country), there will never be a "jia1" (home).

materialism
that ndp ticket auction topic reminded me about something on my mind these days: the big S11.
there is always a constant struggle within me, whether to focus more fully on studies, or divert some focus to get the dough. it just seems so unlogical sometimes. others are busy earning the moolah, while im spending my time expending moolah on studies. when i grad, i carry with me a sack of debt, while some may already carry with them a bag of "kaching". nevertheless, the general advice i've been given, is to enjoy myself now, and think about the dough later. after a couple of weeks at xm, it seems that this advice is finally sinking in. it seems that the more u get worried about the dough, it is in fact this worry that is holding u back and preventing u from performing to your fullest potential. now the challenge lies in choosing a viable path, and then just concentrating on doing whatever i'm doing to the best. its true when they say, as long as u focus on what u're doing, everything else will take care of itself. (i suddenly thought of the mastercard advert. heh)

A+ platelets needed

2005-07-04T10:17:00.000+08:00

A 21 year old female patient is down with lymphona and will be taking a stem cell transplant operation very soon. Her best friend is sourcing for A+ platelets donors urgently.

Below is an FAQ regarding platelets donation and criteria to be met.

What is Platelet?
Platelet is the smallest of the cells in the blood. It is essential for the clotting of blood.

Who needs Platelet Transfusion?
Patients with blood disorders, leukaemia or cancer may need frequent platelet transfusions as their platelets are destroyed after chemotherapy, radiation treatment or stem cell transplant.

What is Platelets Donation?
Platelets donation or platelet-pheresis is a special kind of blood donation that allows platelets to be extracted from whole blood through a blood separator machine.

How is Platelets Donation performed?
A needle is inserted into your vein at the forearm after applying local anaesthetic. Sterile procedure tubings are connected to the needle and blood is drawn from your vein into the blood separator machine, which will separate the platelets from whole blood. The rest of your blood will be returned to you to avoid further blood loss. The procedure is painless (almost!) and will take approximately 1-2 hours to complete.

Is Platelets Donation safe?
Platelets donation is very safe because only platelets are removed from the blood. All equipment that comes into direct contact w3ith the blood is disposable, used only once and thrown away. Occasionally, the donor may experience a slight tingling sensation around the lips and nose, or feel slightly cold during the donation process, but these symptoms pass quickly.

How often can I donate platelets?
You can donate platelets every 2 weeks but the total number of donations should not exceed 24 times a year.

To be eligible for donating platelets, you have to meet the following criteria

- Between 18-55 years old
- Weigh at least 50kg
- Did not donate red blood during the last 3 months
- Do not have a history of diabetes, hypertension and asthma
- Did not have flu, fever, cough or sore throat in the past one week
- Did not take antibiotics and flu medication in the past one week
- Did not travel to India, Nepal and other rural countries within the last 6 months
- Did not take anti-malaria pills within the last 6 months
- Have not been exposed to chicken pox in the last 6 moths
- Have good prominent veins on both forearms
- Willing to spend approximately 2 hours during the actual donation process for platelets donations
- Is of A+ blood group (because the patient is A+ !)

If all the above criteria are met, the doctor will examine you and your consent will be taken for the donation. Your blood sample will be taken and tested. Please contact Wei Lin (patient's best friend) via msn at loweilin@hotmail.com.

B-52

2005-07-04T02:14:00.000+08:00

caught "a lot like love" this wk. typical unpractical love story, but it was digestable.

attended bill gates talk on friday and was brainwashed for almost 2 hours before bill came on. he spoke about stuff that was making me sleep, but i was awaken by his geeky laugh, think "HA-HA-HA" separately. the Q & A was interesting though, one of the questions being "Why is Microsoft so against opensource?".. heh..

they then gave a sneak preview of longhorn.. which I feel is very similar to mac OS.. so nothing really caught my eye.

what attracted me was the windows mediacenter 2005. too bad its not going to be launched as a software. I already have a tv-card, y the need to buy another piece of hardware? sigh~ researching on free mediacenter software now.

found this -> http://mediaportal.sourceforge.net/
not sure if its gd though.

here are some pics from bill gates live:

my pass to see my uncle

look at the crowd!

SQ - my partner in crime

XM Tech Stars

Uncle Bill's singing a lullaby

MIA

2005-06-23T02:54:00.000+08:00

oh man, i haven't been blogging for more than 2 weeks. guess i've been MIA-ing. Busy with internship. Visa, datapop, nokia testing, and then finally managed to get myself into tech side to get more exposure. Tech has nice people who never fails to CS at 6pm sharp everyday. Although I forsee more time-consuming work here, I feel a new lease of life after moving into my new office with a great view of Suntec City.

Only yesterday did I realise that there is a rooftop swimming pool and tennis courts at Suntec City! And those Chinooks carrying the state flag were flying past our office for the NDP rehearsals.. cool sia... 26th floor of Shaw Tower.. I will miss you when I leave...

Caught Initial D today. GLEEENNNNNNN!!!! Thanks for the free tickets! Really enjoyed the show although I've never read the comic, watched the anime, or had any knowledge about its story. I only know its about this guy who is a damn power racer with a lau pok car.. (which turned out that it just looks lau pok)

On a different note, my laptop has been plauged with a persistent bsod error and it auto reboots itself. Its really getting on my nerves... and I have to work on it everyday...

oh.. there was this really funny incident on my way to school after work today... i was looking at this guy staring at this girl.. then he walked into a road works barrier... then as i was watching him walk into the barrier.. i knocked into a lady who turned out to be quite.. eh... not very desirable... i guess.. what comes around... comes around..

food for thought

2005-06-07T10:17:00.000+08:00

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and
remember what peace there may be in silence...

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good
terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly
and clearly; listen to others, even the dull and the
ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and
aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the
spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may
become vain or bitter, for always there will be
greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy
your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however
humble; it is a real possession in the changing
fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business
affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But
let this
not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons
strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of
heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all
aridity and disenchantment, it is the perennial as
the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully
surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength
of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do
not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many
fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with
yourself. You are a child of the universe no less
than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be
here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no
doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace. And whatever your labours
and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep
peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery
and broken dreams, IT IS STILL A BEATIFUL
WORLD. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy. Always.

high stress

2005-05-25T00:34:00.000+08:00

this low paying internship is increasingly stressing me out. have to finish workflow test plan in 2 days. luckily i can stay in office whole day tmr, instead of running to visa ts for the 2nd half of the day. hopefully tmr i can be production and get as much done as possible. deadlines are knocking. apparently according to my PM, things gonna get better after this week. i hope so. somehow, i still wish to do a little of solutions engineering. maybe i can ask him to transfer me to tech for the same project when the time is right.

i knew it

2005-05-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

i knew it i knew it i knew it. she chose mj over me AGAIN. I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER.

a surprise that is not to be

2005-05-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

star wars yesterday. closure of the trilogy, not too bad. dinner with family at pan pac, not worth the fifty bucks, but i still ate till i almost puked. went home and waited and waited for her to come. watched movie, super hot tomyam noodles n then concussed.

woke up for lunch late today. slacked around n then sent her home. met sam soon after. she complained that i don't pamper her as much now that i have a gf. but i don't think its because i have a gf, its more because i have grown older. maybe i'm cynical, but i have slowly grown increasingly selfish, for pple often misplace my care n concern.

we were having coffee and cheesecake at coffee club when mich called me at 6, telling me that she's going to eat at home alone. suddenly struck me that i can give her a surprise to make up for the dinner that we never had yesterday. so i gave sam a lame reason that i couldn't send her home n msged my mum tt i'll not be eating. sped home to get her cornflake tarts and gave her a call to ask what she wanted for dinner, only to realise that she's already on the way out for dinner. my world mini crashed. so i skipped dinner n went to zzz, despite my mum's repeated attempts to make me eat something.

i cooled down n told myself that its ok. i wasn't blaming her or anything, just disappointed, and its nobody's fault. just let it be, n be nice if she calls. she realli did. and i wanted to talk to her so much, thinking that she wanted to talk to me as much. but i was wrong. she was just interested in explaining herself for wat happened before, and for needing to keep the conversation short to run some errands. ok... hope was given and dashed again..

blog, at least i know when i have no one to turn to, there is u. u might not be a living thing, but at least my frustrations can be let off here, and i'll be normal again in the REAL world. i guess she must be happily playing mahjong or interacting with her relatives or sleeping soundly or doing nothing or watever. i'll just let her be and not disturb her cuz i know i'm volatile now. whatever i say now, she's going to say that i'm blaming her, but i'm not. poor blog, u have to bear the grunt of this. LOL. but wth, that's the purpose of you nevertheless. at least you won't say that i'm blaming u for what has happened.

time to drink it all off. cheers. tmr will be better!

i hate lies.

2005-05-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

fucked up day. bad first day at work. bad first day after work. period.

kidnap me

2005-05-16T03:45:00.000+08:00

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