Finally met her on Sunday night. Didn't expect her to be with a friend though. Didn't help when I had things on my mind and fatigue got the better of me. These 2 days were though, trying to get her out of my head while coping with the heavy workload. Staying in every night only amplified the loneliness and helplessness from work. Managed to chat with her last night but it ended so very abruptly.

I'm confused about what I'm confused about. I know I should get a grip. Knowing what to do is easy. Doing it is another game altogether.

Somehow I have a feeling this will not be a phase. I hope it will be. I pray it will be. It better be.